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The Twilight Saga 2 New Moon Chapter 17 VISITOR Free Essays
string(104) " then who was my greatest allegiance to\? Jacob, or Alice\? It was too hard to keep secrets, I decided\." UNNATURALLY STILL AND WHITE, WITH LARGE BLACK EYES intent on my face, my visitor waited perfectly motionless in the center of the halt, beautiful beyond imagining. My knees trembled for a second, and I nearly fell. Then I hurled myself at her. We will write a custom essay sample on The Twilight Saga 2: New Moon Chapter 17 VISITOR or any similar topic only for you Order Now ââ¬Å"Alice, oh, Alice!â⬠I cried, as I slammed into her. Iââ¬â¢d forgotten how hard she was; it was like running headlong into a wall of cement. ââ¬Å"Bella?â⬠There was a strange mingling of relief and confusion in her voice. I locked my arms around her, gasping to inhale as much of the scent of her skin as possible. It wasnââ¬â¢t like anything elsenot floral or spice, citrus or musk. No perfume in the world could compare. My memory hadnââ¬â¢t done it justice. I didnââ¬â¢t notice when the gasping turned into something elseI only realized I was sobbing when Alice dragged me to the living room couch and pulled me into her lap. It was like curling up into a cool stone, but a stone that was contoured comfortingly to the shape of my body. She rubbed my back in a gentle rhythm, waiting for me to get control of myself. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m sorry,â⬠I blubbered. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m just so happy to see you!â⬠ââ¬Å"Itââ¬â¢s okay, Bella. Everythingââ¬â¢s okay.â⬠ââ¬Å"Yes,â⬠I bawled. And, for once, it seemed that way. Alice sighed. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢d forgotten how exuberant you are,â⬠she said, and her tone was disapproving. I looked up at her through my streaming eyes. Aliceââ¬â¢s neck was tight, straining away from me, her lips pressed together firmly. Her eyes were black as pitch. ââ¬Å"Oh,â⬠I puffed, as I realized the problem. She was thirsty. And I smelled appetizing. It had been a while since Iââ¬â¢d had to think about that kind of thing. ââ¬Å"Sorry.â⬠ââ¬Å"Itââ¬â¢s my own fault. Itââ¬â¢s been too long since I hunted. I shouldnââ¬â¢t let myself get so thirsty. But I was in a hurry today.â⬠The look she directed at me then was a glare. ââ¬Å"Speaking of which, would you like to explain to me how youââ¬â¢re alive?â⬠That brought me up short and stopped the sobs. I realized what must have happened immediately, and why Alice was here. I swallowed loudly. ââ¬Å"You saw me fall.â⬠ââ¬Å"No,â⬠she disagreed, her eyes narrowing. ââ¬Å"I saw you jump.â⬠I pursed my lips as I tried to think of an explanation that wouldnââ¬â¢t sound nuts. Alice shook her head. ââ¬Å"I told him this would happen, but he didnââ¬â¢t believe me. ââ¬ËBella promised,'â⬠her voice imitated his so perfectly that I iroze in shock while the pain ripped through my torso. ââ¬Å"ââ¬ËDonââ¬â¢t be looking for her future, either,'â⬠she continued to quote him. ââ¬Ëâ⬠Weââ¬â¢ve done enough damage.â⬠ââ¬Å"But just because Iââ¬â¢m not looking, doesnââ¬â¢t mean I donââ¬â¢t seeâ⬠she went on. ââ¬Å"I wasnââ¬â¢t keeping tabs on you, I swear, Bella. Itââ¬â¢s just that Iââ¬â¢m alreacy attuned to you when I saw you jumping, I didnââ¬â¢t think, I just got on a plane. I knew I would be too late, but I couldnââ¬â¢t do nothing. And then I get here, thinking maybe I could help Charlie somehow, and you drive up.â⬠She shook her head, this time in confusion. Her voice was strained. ââ¬Å"I saw you go into the water and I waited and waited for you to come up, but you didnââ¬â¢t. What happened? And how could you do that to Charlie? Did you stop to think what this would do to him? And my brother? Do you have any idea what Edwardâ⬠I cut her off then, as soon as she said his name. Iââ¬â¢d let her go on, even after I realized the misunderstanding she was under, just to hear the perfect bell tone of her voice. But it was time to interrupt. ââ¬Å"Alice, I wasnââ¬â¢t committing suicide.â⬠She eyed me dubiously. ââ¬Å"Are you saying you didnââ¬â¢t jump off a cliff?â⬠ââ¬Å"No, butâ⬠I grimaced. ââ¬Å"It was for recreational purposes only.â⬠Her expression hardened. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢d seen some of Jacobââ¬â¢s friends cliff diving,â⬠I insisted. ââ¬Å"It looked like fun, and I was boredâ⬠She waited. ââ¬Å"I didnââ¬â¢t think about how the storm would affect the currents. Actually, I didnââ¬â¢t think about the water much at all.â⬠Alice didnââ¬â¢t buy it. I could see that she still thought I had been trying to kill myself. I decided to redirect. ââ¬Å"So if you saw me go in, why didnââ¬â¢t you see Jacob?â⬠She cocked her head to the side, distracted. I continued. ââ¬Å"Itââ¬â¢s true that I probably would have drowned if Jacob hadnââ¬â¢t jumped in after me. Well, okay, thereââ¬â¢s no probably about it. But he did, and he pulled me out, and I guess he towed me back to shore, though I was kind of out for that part. It couldnââ¬â¢t have been more than a minute that I was under before he grabbed me. How come you didnââ¬â¢t see that?â⬠She frowned in perplexity. ââ¬Å"Someone pulled you out?â⬠ââ¬Å"Yes. Jacob saved me.â⬠I watched curiously as an enigmatic range of emotions flitted across her face. Something was bothering herher imperfect vision? But I wasnââ¬â¢t sure. Then she deliberately leaned in and sniffed my shoulder. I froze. ââ¬Å"Donââ¬â¢t be ridiculous,â⬠she muttered, sniffing at me some more. ââ¬Å"What are you doing?â⬠She ignored my question. ââ¬Å"Who was with you out there just now? It sounded like you were arguing.â⬠ââ¬Å"Jacob Black. Heââ¬â¢s sort of my best friend, I guess. At least, he wasâ⬠I thought of Jacobââ¬â¢s angry, betrayed face, and wondered what he was to me now. Alice nodded, seeming preoccupied. ââ¬Å"What?â⬠ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t know,â⬠she said. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m not sure what it means.â⬠ââ¬Å"Well, Iââ¬â¢m not dead, at least.â⬠She rolled her eyes. ââ¬Å"He was a fool to think you could survive alone. Iââ¬â¢ve never seen anyone so prone to life-threatening idiocy.â⬠ââ¬Å"I survived,â⬠I pointed out. She was thinking of something else. ââ¬Å"So, if the currents were too much for you, how did this Jacob manage?â⬠ââ¬Å"Jacob is strong.â⬠She heard the reluctance in my voice, and her eyebrows rose. I gnawed on my lip for a second. Was this a secret, or not? And if it was, then who was my greatest allegiance to? Jacob, or Alice? It was too hard to keep secrets, I decided. Jacob knew everything, why not Alice, too? ââ¬Å"See, well, heââ¬â¢s sort of a werewolf,â⬠I admitted in a rush. ââ¬Å"The Quileutes turn into wolves when there are vampires around. They know Carlisle from a long time ago. Were you with Carlisle back then?â⬠Alice gawked at me for a moment, and then recovered herself, blinking rapidly. ââ¬Å"Well, I guess that explains the smell,â⬠she muttered. ââ¬Å"But does it explain what I didnââ¬â¢t see?â⬠She frowned, her porcelain forehead creasing. ââ¬Å"The smell?â⬠I repeated. ââ¬Å"You smell awful,â⬠she said absently, still frowning. ââ¬Å"A werewolf? Are you sure about that?â⬠ââ¬Å"Very sure,â⬠I promised, wincing as I remembered Paul and Jacob fighting in the road. ââ¬Å"I guess you werenââ¬â¢t with Carlisle the last time there were werewolves here in Forks?â⬠ââ¬Å"No. I hadnââ¬â¢t found him yet.â⬠Alice was still lost in thought. Suddenly, her eyes widened, and she turned to stare at me with a shocked expression. ââ¬Å"Your best friend is a werewolf?â⬠I nodded sheepishly. ââ¬Å"How long has this been going on?â⬠ââ¬Å"Not long,â⬠I said, my voice sounding defensive. ââ¬Å"Heââ¬â¢s only been a werewolf for just a few weeks.â⬠She glowered at me. ââ¬Å"A young werewolf? Even worse! Edward was rightyouââ¬â¢re a magnet for danger. Werenââ¬â¢t you supposed to be staying out of trouble?â⬠ââ¬Å"Thereââ¬â¢s nothing wrong with werewolves,â⬠I grumbled, stung by her critical tone. ââ¬Å"Until they lose their tempers.â⬠She shook her head sharply from side to side. ââ¬Å"Leave it to you, Bella. Anyone else would be better off when the vampires left town. But you have to start hanging out with the first monsters you can find.â⬠I didnââ¬â¢t want to argue with AliceI was still trembling with joy that she was really, truly here, that I could touch her marble skin and hear her wind-chime voicebut she had it all wrong. ââ¬Å"No, Alice, the vampires didnââ¬â¢t really leavenot all of them, anyway. Thatââ¬â¢s the whole trouble. If it werenââ¬â¢t for the werewolves, Victoria would have gotten me by now. Well, if it werenââ¬â¢t for Jake and his friends, Laurent would have gotten me before she could, I guess, soâ⬠ââ¬Å"Victoria?â⬠she hissed. ââ¬Å"Laurent?â⬠I nodded, a teensy bit alarmed by the expression in her black eyes. I pointed at my chest. ââ¬Å"Danger magnet, remember?â⬠She shook her head again. ââ¬Å"Tell me everythingstart at the beginning.â⬠I glossed over the beginning, skipping the motorcycles and the voices, but telling her everything else right up to todayââ¬â¢s misadventure. Alice didnââ¬â¢t like my thin explanation about boredom and the cliffs, so I hurried on to the strange flame Iââ¬â¢d seen on the water and what I thought it meant. Her eyes narrowed almost to slits at that part. It was strange to see her look so so dangerouslike a vampire. I swallowed hard and went on with the rest about Harry. She listened to my story without interrupting. Occasionally, she would shake her head, and the crease in her forehead deepened until it looked like it was carved permanently into the marble of her skin. She didnââ¬â¢t speak and, finally, I fell quiet, struck again by the borrowed grief at Harryââ¬â¢s passing. I thought of Charlie; he would be home soon. What condition would he be in? ââ¬Å"Our leaving didnââ¬â¢t do you any good at all, did it?â⬠Alice murmured. I laughed onceit was a slightly hysterical sound. ââ¬Å"That was never the point, though, was it? Itââ¬â¢s not like you left for my benefit.â⬠Alice scowled at the floor for a moment. ââ¬Å"Well I guess I acted impulsively today. I probably shouldnââ¬â¢t have intruded.â⬠I could feel the blood draining from my face. My stomach dropped. ââ¬Å"Donââ¬â¢t go, Alice,â⬠I whispered. My fingers locked around the collar of her white shirt and I began to hyperventilate. ââ¬Å"Please donââ¬â¢t leave me.â⬠Her eyes opened wider. ââ¬Å"All right,â⬠she said, enunciating each word with slow precision. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m not going anywhere tonight. Take a deep breath.â⬠I tried to obey, though I couldnââ¬â¢t quite locate my lungs. She watched my face while I concentrated on my breathing. She waited till I was calmer to comment. ââ¬Å"You look like hell, Bella.â⬠ââ¬Å"I drowned today,â⬠I reminded her. ââ¬Å"It goes deeper than that. Youââ¬â¢re a mess.â⬠I flinched. ââ¬Å"Look, Iââ¬â¢m doing my best.â⬠ââ¬Å"What do you mean?â⬠ââ¬Å"It hasnââ¬â¢t been easy. Iââ¬â¢m working on it.â⬠She frowned. ââ¬Å"I told him,â⬠she said to herself. ââ¬Å"Alice,â⬠I sighed. ââ¬Å"What did you think you were going to find? I mean, besides me dead? Did you expect to find me skipping around and whistling show tunes? You know me better than that.â⬠ââ¬Å"I do. But I hoped.â⬠ââ¬Å"Then I guess I donââ¬â¢t have the corner on the idiocy market.â⬠The phone rang. ââ¬Å"That has to be Charlie,â⬠I said, staggering to my feet. I grabbed Aliceââ¬â¢s stone hand and dragged her with me to the kitchen. I wasnââ¬â¢t about to let her out of my sight. ââ¬Å"Charlie?â⬠I answered the phone. ââ¬Å"No, itââ¬â¢s me,â⬠Jacob said. ââ¬Å"Jake!â⬠Alice scrutinized my expression. ââ¬Å"Just making sure you were still alive,â⬠Jacob said sourly. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m fine. I told you that it wasnââ¬â¢tâ⬠ââ¬Å"Yeah. I got it. ââ¬ËBye.â⬠Jacob hung up on me. I sighed and let my head hang back, staring at the ceiling. ââ¬Å"Thatââ¬â¢s going to be a problem.â⬠Alice squeezed my hand. ââ¬Å"They arenââ¬â¢t excited Iââ¬â¢m here.â⬠ââ¬Å"Not especially. But itââ¬â¢s none of their business anyway.â⬠Alice put her arm around me. ââ¬Å"So what do we do now?â⬠she mused. She seemed to talk to herself for a moment. ââ¬Å"Things to do. Loose ends to tie.â⬠ââ¬Å"What things to do?â⬠Her face was suddenly careful. ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t know for sure I need to see Carlisle.â⬠Would she leave so soon? My stomach dropped. ââ¬Å"Could you stay?â⬠I begged. ââ¬Å"Please? For just a little while. Iââ¬â¢ve missed you so much.â⬠My voice broke. ââ¬Å"If you think thatââ¬â¢s a good idea.â⬠Her eyes were unhappy. ââ¬Å"I do. You can stay hereCharlie would love that.â⬠ââ¬Å"I have a house, Bella.â⬠I nodded, disappointed but resigned. She hesitated, studying me. ââ¬Å"Well, I need to go get a suitcase of clothes, at the very least.â⬠I threw my arms around her. ââ¬Å"Alice, youââ¬â¢re the best!â⬠ââ¬Å"And I think Iââ¬â¢ll need to hunt. Immediately,â⬠she added in a strained voice. ââ¬Å"Oops.â⬠I took a step back. ââ¬Å"Can you stay out of trouble for one hour?â⬠she asked skeptically. Then, before I could answer, she held up one finger and closed her eyes. Her face went smooth and blank for a few seconds. And then her eyes opened and she answered her own question. ââ¬Å"Yes, youââ¬â¢ll be fine. For tonight, anyway.â⬠She grimaced. Even making faces, she looked like an angel. ââ¬Å"Youââ¬â¢ll come back?â⬠I asked in a small voice. ââ¬Å"I promiseone hour.â⬠I glanced at the clock over the kitchen table. She laughed and leaned in quickly to kiss me on the cheek. Then she was gone. I took a deep breath. Alice would be back. I suddenly felt so much better. I had plenty to do to keep myself busy while I waited. A shower was definitely first on the agenda. I sniffed my shoulders as I undressed, but I couldnââ¬â¢t smell anything but the brine and seaweed scent of the ocean. I wondered what Alice had meant about me smelling bad. When I was cleaned up, I went back to the kitchen. I couldnââ¬â¢t see any signs that Charlie ââ¬Ëlad eaten recently, and he would probably be hungry when he got back. I hummed tunelessly to myself as I moved around the kitchen. While Thursdayââ¬â¢s casserole rotated in the microwave, I made up the couch with sheets and an old pillow. Alice wouldnââ¬â¢t need it, but Charlie would need to see it. I was careful not to watch the clock. There was no reason to start myself panicking; Alice had promised. I hurried through my dinner, not tasting itjust feeling the ache as it slid down my raw throat. Mostly I was thirsty; I must have drunk a half gallon of water by the time I was finished. All the salt in my system had dehydrated me. I went to go try to watch TV while I waited. Alice was already there, sitting on her improvised bed. Her eyes were a liquid butterscotch. She smiled and patted the pillow. ââ¬Å"Thanks.â⬠ââ¬Å"Youââ¬â¢re early,â⬠I said, elated. I sat down next to her and leaned my head on her shoulder. She put her cold arms around me and sighed. ââ¬Å"Bella. What are we going to do with you?â⬠ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t know,â⬠I admitted. ââ¬Å"I really have been trying my hardest.â⬠ââ¬Å"I believe you.â⬠It was silent. ââ¬Å"Doesdoes heâ⬠I took a deep breath. It was harder to say his name out loud, even though I was able to think it now. ââ¬Å"Does Edward know youââ¬â¢re here?â⬠I couldnââ¬â¢t help asking. It was my pain, after all. Iââ¬â¢d deal with it when she was gone, I promised myself, and felt sick at the thought. ââ¬Å"No.â⬠There was only one way that could be true. ââ¬Å"Heââ¬â¢s not with Carlisle and Esme?â⬠ââ¬Å"He checks in every few months.â⬠ââ¬Å"Oh.â⬠He must still be out enjoying his distractions. I focused my curiosity on a safer topic. ââ¬Å"You said you flew here Where did you come from?â⬠ââ¬Å"I was in Denali. Visiting Tanyaââ¬â¢s family.â⬠ââ¬Å"Is Jasper here? Did he come with your'â⬠She shook her head. ââ¬Å"He didnââ¬â¢t approve of my interfering. We promisedâ⬠she trailed off, and then her tone changed. ââ¬Å"And you think Charlie wonââ¬â¢t mind my being here?â⬠she asked, sounding worried. ââ¬Å"Charlie thinks youââ¬â¢re wonderful, Alice.â⬠ââ¬Å"Well, weââ¬â¢re about to find out.â⬠Sure enough, a few seconds later I heard the cruiser pull into the driveway. I jumped up and hurried to open the door. Charlie trudged slowly up the walk, his eyes on the ground and his shoulders slumped. I walked forward to meet him; he didnââ¬â¢t even see me until I hugged him around the waist. He embraced me back fiercely. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m so sorry about Harry, Dad.â⬠ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m really going to miss him,â⬠Charlie mumbled. ââ¬Å"Howââ¬â¢s Sue doing?â⬠ââ¬Å"She seems dazed, like she hasnââ¬â¢t grasped it yet. Samââ¬â¢s staying with herâ⬠The volume of his voice faded in and out. ââ¬Å"Those poor kids. Leahââ¬â¢s just a year older than you, and Seth is only fourteenâ⬠He shook his head. He kept his arms tight around me as he started toward the door again. ââ¬Å"Um, Dad?â⬠I figured Iââ¬â¢d better warn him. ââ¬Å"Youââ¬â¢ll never guess whoââ¬â¢s here.â⬠He looked at me blankly. His head swiveled around, and he spied the Mercedes across the street, the porch light reflecting off the glossy black paint. Before he could react, Alice was in the doorway. ââ¬Å"Hi, Charlie,â⬠she said in a subdued voice. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m sorry I came at such a bad time.â⬠ââ¬Å"Alice Cullen?â⬠he peered at the slight figure in front of him as if he doubted what his eyes were telling him. ââ¬Å"Alice, is that you?â⬠ââ¬Å"Itââ¬â¢s me,â⬠she confirmed. ââ¬Å"I was in the neighborhood.â⬠ââ¬Å"Is Carlisleâ⬠ââ¬Å"No, Iââ¬â¢m alone.â⬠Both Alice and I knew he wasnââ¬â¢t really asking about Carlisle. His arm tightened over my shoulder. ââ¬Å"She can stay here, canââ¬â¢t she?â⬠I pleaded. ââ¬Å"I already asked her.â⬠ââ¬Å"Of course,â⬠Charlie said mechanically. ââ¬Å"Weââ¬â¢d love to have you, Alice.â⬠ââ¬Å"Thank you, Charlie. I know itââ¬â¢s horrid timing.â⬠ââ¬Å"No, itââ¬â¢s fine, really. Iââ¬â¢m going to be really busy doing what I can for Harryââ¬â¢s family; it will be nice for Bella to have some company.â⬠ââ¬Å"Thereââ¬â¢s dinner for you on the table, Dad,â⬠I told him. ââ¬Å"Thanks, Bell.â⬠He gave me one more squeeze before he shuffled toward the kitchen. Alice went back to the couch, and I followed her. This time, she was the one to pull me against her shoulder. ââ¬Å"You look tired.â⬠ââ¬Å"Yeah,â⬠I agreed, and shrugged. ââ¬Å"Near-death experiences do that to me So, what does Carlisle think of you being here?â⬠ââ¬Å"He doesnââ¬â¢t know. He and Esme were on a hunting trip. Iââ¬â¢ll hear from him in a few days, when he gets back.â⬠ââ¬Å"You wonââ¬â¢t tell him, though when he checks in again?â⬠I asked. She knew I didnââ¬â¢t mean Carlisle now. ââ¬Å"No. Heââ¬â¢d bite my head off,â⬠Alice said grimly. I laughed once, and then sighed. I didnââ¬â¢t want to sleep. I wanted to stay up all night talking to Alice. And it didnââ¬â¢t make sense for me to be tired, what with crashing on Jacobââ¬â¢s couch all day. But drowning really had taken a lot out of me, and my eyes wouldnââ¬â¢t stay open. I rested my head on her stone shoulder, and drifted into a more peaceful oblivion than I had any hope of. I woke early, from a deep and dreamless sleep, feeling well-rested, but stiff. I was on the couch tucked under the blankets Iââ¬â¢d laid out for Alice, and I could hear her and Charlie talking in the kitchen. It sounded like Charlie was fixing her breakfast. ââ¬Å"How bad was it, Charlie?â⬠Alice asked softly, and at first I thought they were talking about the Clearwaters. Charlie sighed. ââ¬Å"Real bad.â⬠ââ¬Å"Tell me about it. I want to know exactly what happened when we left.â⬠There was a pause while a cupboard door was closed and a dial on the stove was clicked off. I waited, cringing. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢ve never felt so helpless,â⬠Charlie began slowly. ââ¬Å"I didnââ¬â¢t know what to do. That first weekI thought I was going to have to hospitalize her. She wouldnââ¬â¢t eat or drink, she wouldnââ¬â¢t move. Dr. Gerandy was throwing around words like ââ¬Ëcatatonic,ââ¬â¢ but I didnââ¬â¢t let him up to see her. I was afraid it would scare her.â⬠ââ¬Å"She snapped out of it though?â⬠ââ¬Å"I had Renee come to take her to Florida. I just didnââ¬â¢t want to be the one if she had to go to a hospital or something. I hoped being with her mother would help. But when we started packing her clothes, she woke up with a vengeance. Iââ¬â¢ve never seen Bella throw a fit like that. She was never one for the tantrums, but, boy, did she fly into a fury. She threw her clothes everywhere and screamed that we couldnââ¬â¢t make her leaveand then she finally started crying. I thought that would be the turning point. I didnââ¬â¢t argue when she insisted on staying here and she did seem to get better at firstâ⬠Charlie trailed off. It was hard listening to this, knowing how much pain Iââ¬â¢d caused him. ââ¬Å"But?â⬠Alice prompted. ââ¬Å"She went back to school and work, she ate and slept and did her homework. She answered when someone asked her a direct question. But she was empty. Her eyes were blank. There were lots of little thingsshe wouldnââ¬â¢t listen to music anymore; I found a bunch of CDs broken in the trash. She didnââ¬â¢t read; she wouldnââ¬â¢t be in the same room when the TV was on, not that she watched it so much before. I finally figured it outshe was avoiding everything that might remind her of him. ââ¬Å"We could hardly talk; I was so worried about saying something that would upset herthe littlest things would make her flinchand she never volunteered anything. She would just answer if I asked her something. ââ¬Å"She was alone all the time. She didnââ¬â¢t call her friends back, and after a while, they stopped calling. ââ¬Å"It was night of the living dead around here. I still hear her screaming in her sleepâ⬠I could almost see him shuddering. I shuddered, too, remembering. And then I sighed. I hadnââ¬â¢t fooled him at all, not for one second. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m so sorry, Charlie,â⬠Alice said, voice glum. ââ¬Å"Itââ¬â¢s not your fault.â⬠The way he said it made it perfectly clear that he was holding someone responsible. ââ¬Å"You were always a good friend to her.â⬠ââ¬Å"She seems better now, though.â⬠ââ¬Å"Yeah. Ever since she started hanging out with Jacob Black, Iââ¬â¢ve noticed a real improvement. She has some color in her cheeks when she comes home, some light in her eyes. Sheââ¬â¢s happier.â⬠He paused, and his voice was different when he spoke again. ââ¬Å"Heââ¬â¢s a year or so younger than her, and I know she used to think of him as a friend, but I think maybe itââ¬â¢s something more now, or headed that direction, anyway.â⬠Charlie said this in a tone that was almost belligerent. It was a warning, not for Alice, but for her to pass along. ââ¬Å"Jakeââ¬â¢s old for his years,â⬠he continued, still sounding defensive. ââ¬Å"Heââ¬â¢s taken care of his father physically the way Bella took care of her mother emotionally. It matured him. Heââ¬â¢s a good-looking kid, tootakes after his momââ¬â¢s side. Heââ¬â¢s good for Bella, you know,â⬠Charlie insisted. ââ¬Å"Then itââ¬â¢s good she has him,â⬠Alice agreed. Charlie sighed out a big gust of air, folding quickly to the lack of opposition. ââ¬Å"Okay, so I guess thatââ¬â¢s overstating things. I donââ¬â¢t know even with Jacob, now and then I see something in her eyes, and I wonder if Iââ¬â¢ve ever grasped how much pain sheââ¬â¢s really in Itââ¬â¢s not normal, Alice, and it it frightens me. Not normal at all. Not like someone left her, but like someone died.â⬠His voice cracked. It was like someone had diedlike I had died. Because it had been more than just losing the truest of true loves, as if that were not enough to kill anyone. It was also losing a whole future, a whole familythe whole life that Iââ¬â¢d chosen Charlie went on in a hopeless tone. ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t know if sheââ¬â¢s going to get over itIââ¬â¢m not sure if itââ¬â¢s in her nature to heal from something like this. Sheââ¬â¢s always been such a constant little thing. She doesnââ¬â¢t get past things, change her mind.â⬠ââ¬Å"Sheââ¬â¢s one of a kind,â⬠Alice agreed in a dry voice. ââ¬Å"And Aliceâ⬠Charlie hesitated. ââ¬Å"Now, you know how fond I am of you, and I can tell that sheââ¬â¢s happy to see you, but Iââ¬â¢m a little worried about what your visit will do to her.â⬠ââ¬Å"So am I, Charlie, so am I. I wouldnââ¬â¢t have come if Iââ¬â¢d had any idea. Iââ¬â¢m sorry.â⬠ââ¬Å"Donââ¬â¢t apologize, honey. Who knows? Maybe it will be good for her.â⬠ââ¬Å"I hope youââ¬â¢re right.â⬠There was a long break while forks scraped plates and Charlie chewed. I wondered where Alice was hiding the food. ââ¬Å"Alice, I have to ask you something,â⬠Charlie said awkwardly. Alice was calm. ââ¬Å"Go ahead.â⬠ââ¬Å"Heââ¬â¢s not coming back to visit, too, is he?â⬠I could hear the suppressed anger in Charlieââ¬â¢s voice. Alice answered in a soft, reassuring tone. ââ¬Å"He doesnââ¬â¢t even know Iââ¬â¢m here. The last time I spoke with him, he was in South America.â⬠I stiffened as I heard this new information, and listened harder. ââ¬Å"Thatââ¬â¢s something, at least.â⬠Charlie snorted. ââ¬Å"Well, I hope heââ¬â¢s enjoying himself.â⬠For the first time, Aliceââ¬â¢s voice had a bit of steel in it. ââ¬Å"I wouldnââ¬â¢t make assumptions, Charlie.â⬠I knew how her eyes would flash when she used that tone. A chair scooted from the table, scraping loudly across the floor. I pictured Charlie getting up; there was no way Alice would make that kind of noise. The faucet ran, splashing against a dish. It didnââ¬â¢t sound like they were going to say anything more about Edward, so I decided it was time to wake up. I turned over, bouncing against the springs to make them squeak. Then I yawned loudly. All was quiet in the kitchen. I stretched and groaned. ââ¬Å"Alice?â⬠I asked innocently; the soreness rasping in my throat added nicely to the charade. ââ¬Å"Iââ¬â¢m in the kitchen, Bella,â⬠Alice called, no hint in her voice that she suspected my eavesdropping. But she was good at hiding things like that. Charlie had to leave thenhe was helping Sue Clearwater with the funeral arrangements. It would have been a very long day without Alice. She never spoke about leaving, and I didnââ¬â¢t ask her. I knew it was inevitable, but I put it out of my mind. Instead, we talked about her familyall but one. Carlisle was working nights in Ithaca and teaching part time at Cornell. Esme was restoring a seventeenth century house, a historical monument, in the forest north of the city. Emmett and Rosalie had gone to Europe for a few months on another honeymoon, but they were back now. Jasper was at Cornell, too, studying philosophy this time. And Alice had been doing some personal research, concerning the information Iââ¬â¢d accidentally uncovered for her last spring. Sheââ¬â¢d successfully tracked down the asylum where sheââ¬â¢d spent the last years of her human life. The life she had no memory of. ââ¬Å"My name was Mary Alice Brandon,â⬠she told me quietly. ââ¬Å"I had a little sister named Cynthia. Her daughtermy nieceis still alive in Biloxi.â⬠ââ¬Å"Did you find out why they put you in that place?â⬠What would drive parents to that extreme? Even if their daughter saw visions of the future She just shook her head, her topaz eyes thoughtful. ââ¬Å"I couldnââ¬â¢t find much about them. I went through all the old newspapers on microfiche. My family wasnââ¬â¢t mentioned often; they werenââ¬â¢t part of the social circle that made the papers. My parentsââ¬â¢ engagement was there, and Cynthiaââ¬â¢s.â⬠The name fell uncertainly from her tongue. ââ¬Å"My birth was announced and my death. I found my grave. I also filched my admissions sheet from the old asylum archives. The date on the admission and the date on my tombstone are the same.â⬠I didnââ¬â¢t know what to say, and, after a short pause, Alice moved on to lighter topics. The Cullens were reassembled now, with the one exception, spending Cornellââ¬â¢s spring break in Denali with Tanya and her family. I listened too eagerly to even the most trivial news. She never mentioned the one I was most interested in, and for that I was grateful. It was enough to listen to the stories of the family Iââ¬â¢d once dreamed of belonging to. Charlie didnââ¬â¢t get back until after dark, and he looked more worn than he had the night before. He would be headed back to the reservation first thing in the morning for Harryââ¬â¢s funeral, so he turned in early. I stayed on the couch with Alice again. Charlie was almost a stranger when he came down the stairs before the sun was up, wearing an old suit Iââ¬â¢d never seen him in before. The jacket hung open; I guessed it was too tight to fasten the buttons. His tie was a bit wide for the current style. He tiptoed to the door, trying not to wake us up. I let him go, pretending to sleep, as Alice did on the recliner. As soon as he was out the door, Alice sat up. Under the quilt, she was fully dressed. ââ¬Å"So, what are we doing today?â⬠she asked. ââ¬Å"I donââ¬â¢t knowdo you see anything interesting happening?â⬠She smiled and shook her head. ââ¬Å"But itââ¬â¢s still early.â⬠All the time Iââ¬â¢d been spending in La Push meant a pile of things Iââ¬â¢d been neglecting at home, and I decided to catch up on my chores. I wanted to do something, anything that might make life easier for Charliemaybe it would make him feel just a little better to come home to a clean, organized house. I started with the bathroomit showed the most signs of neglect. While I worked, Alice leaned against the doorjamb and asked nonchalant questions about my, well, our high school friends and what they been up to since sheââ¬â¢d left. Her face stayed casual and emotionless, but I sensed her disapproval when she realized how little I could tell her. Or maybe I just had a guilty conscience after eavesdropping on her conversation with Charlie yesterday morning. I was literally up to my elbows in Comet, scrubbing the floor of the bathtub, when the doorbell rang. I looked to Alice at once, and her expression was perplexed, almost worried, which was strange; Alice was never taken by surprise. ââ¬Å"Hold on!â⬠I shouted in the general direction of the front door, getting up and hurrying to the sink to rinse my arms off. ââ¬Å"Bella,â⬠Alice said with a trace of frustration in her voice, ââ¬Å"I have a fairly good guess who that might be, and I think Iââ¬â¢d better step out.â⬠ââ¬Å"Guess?â⬠I echoed. Since when did Alice have to guess anything? ââ¬Å"If this is a repeat of my egregious lapse in foresight yesterday, then itââ¬â¢s most likely Jacob Black or one of his friends.â⬠I stared at her, putting it together. ââ¬Å"You canââ¬â¢t see werewolves?â⬠She grimaced. ââ¬Å"So it would seem.â⬠She was obviously annoyed by this factvery annoyed. The doorbell rang againbuzzing twice quickly and impatiently. ââ¬Å"You donââ¬â¢t have go anywhere, Alice. You were here first.â⬠She laughed her silvery little laughit had a dark edge. ââ¬Å"Trust meit wouldnââ¬â¢t be a good idea to have me and Jacob Black in a room together.â⬠She kissed my cheek swiftly before she vanished through Charlieââ¬â¢s doorand out his back window, no doubt. The doorbell rang again. How to cite The Twilight Saga 2: New Moon Chapter 17 VISITOR, Essay examples
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